This is EXACTLY the problem.... I think.

I am not sure WHY I overeat. Nor am I sure why I buy lots and lots of food all the time so I have huge stockpiles of it. While we were not rich growing up, my parents always insured I had 3 meals a day and plenty of snacks. They went to food pantries and received assistance from the government if necessary so that we could eat. I never experienced food insecurity, but for some reason I have an absolute FEAR that I will not have enough food.

One of my suspicions as to why I overeat is that it is how I deal with stress. This may sound pathetic to some, but I think it is more common than people are willing to admit. Today, for example, I had to attend the wake of a friend's father. Granted, this was not my own father, but I felt so sad for my friend and her family. I was/am also worried for my own parents, who are getting older and are overweight like me. When I was out shopping for a few essentials today, I bought a bag of twizzlers... a big one. I ate 5 of these pull-and-peels before the wake and 3 more when I got in the car. When I got home I had to leave the rest of the twizzlers in the car so I wouldn't eat them. I KNOW I would have eaten them if already if I hadn't left them in the car.

I know that 1. I should not have purchased the candy and 2. If I felt I had to have them, I should have eaten one or two and put the rest away for another time. One of the things I could have done instead of eating candy was simply go for a walk or walk inside on my Gazelle glider. These are some of the things I need to work on.

Tomorrow is my first OA meeting. It starts at 7 pm. Hopefully it will be good and I won't feel too uncomfortable. I think the more I go the better I will feel too. Looking to the weekend, Friday I will be grocery shopping for the next 2 weeks. On the menu will be fruits and veggies, tofu, brown rice, yogurt, and some other things. These will be part of my new meat free diet (more on that tomorrow).

More updates tomorrow. I am going to begin keeping a food journal and will periodically post some of my favorite healthy recipes for you.

Stay well ya'll.